It Hurts The More I Listen To It

So as I was saying in my two posts below that I have this recorded audio of my phone conversation with my father, while it is great to have it but at the same time it hurts me more listening to it over and over again knowing that I could only listen to the same words and his voice now.

The realization strikes me after this one minute conversation I had with him that no matter what I do, no matter how I try to convince myself that my father is not dead, that somehow contradicted to the reality.

My father is already gone!!! Whenever I talk with somebody who also experienced losing a loved one, it always brings tears to my eyes and pain is always there, it seemed never go away!

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I Feel He Is So Alive

Two night ago my little one played with my cellphone and she accidentally pushed a button that opened a recorded audio that I didn't know exist in my phone. I listened to it and found out that it was a phone conversation of me and my father I made a long time ago.

It was so nice to hear my father's voice once again. I feel he is so alive and just couldn't believe I now actually have a great remembrance of how he sounded like when he was still alive.

I missed my father everyday of my life! If only I could turn back the time... I know he is happy where he is now and is watching over us. 'Pa, wherever you are, please know that we are here missing you so much!

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He Appreciates My Hardwork

Today I had the mood to clean the living room and the second bathroom adjacent to Jadyn's bedroom, washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, washed one of the couches' cover, swept the master's bathroom floor and showered myself and Megan. I did all these just before sunset. This only happens once in a blue moon. Cheers to myself for that, hehe!

Anyway, I am secretly smiling because the husband noticed my hard work and appreciated me for it. Thank God! I like it when my better half take notice of what I've done in this house. I tell yah, having two girls to take care plus household chores isn't easy.

 

 

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My husband is retiring in a few years and he told me how much exactly he is going to receive as retirement fee. Knowing the amount makes me want to think seriously of how we will be able to afford to send our two girls to college. Education is something very precious and the only thing we can give to our kids but talking of which, college education here in the US is so expensive that I am not sure how are we going to do it.

However, there are several options for a child attain her college education and finish it through grants and scholarships. I know they will be fine once that time comes. I see them as both smart and I hope they can avail different scholarships to help them get through college and hopefully land themselves a better career for a brighter future.

Establish An Open Communication Between Us Two

My husband and I are going to celebrate our 8 years together in three months. For others who have been together for decades that sounds well not long but for us who have been quite a few hurdles in our relationship especially in financial aspects, eight years is already a long time! Cheers for us haha, ga una una wala pa gali!

All those times we spent together, I realized how important it is to establish an open communication between me and him. I am normally a happy person and so contented of my life I'm living now but there were times I can't help but sulk and feeling all the negative emotions I shouldn't feel.

When I felt I could no longer hold them, I took a step on furthering a better relationship with my spouse. Although I did not say it vocally but writing it helped a lot, thank God. I am now okay and back to the normal world once again. It was through a letter I was able to pour out all my emotions and I am glad he didn't take it against me instead listened and understood me with his might.

Thanks also to a friend who was there listening my rants haha... I know I would have exploded if she wasn't there lending her ears to me. Thanks day, you know who you are!